Well, its 8 days after my birthday! :)   but things are making me very sad and wish to find out the reason.. firstly, you do all this things when im forgetting you! secondly, must you work at the same place as me?! :( after all i want to find out what's ur problem with me! :'( you like me or not! i wish i could face to face talk to you! but its not time yet! :( why can't i just talk to you? i freaking hate you! when im forgetting you then you make things that got to do with you.. then after all my question to you is that do you ever like me before?! i always give too much hope on you and that's what i get back? i don't want it to turn out to be a bad thing! coz my frens has been asking me if i want to know someone else.. which is like mix & match.. i hate it when they ask me when im gonna get into relationship and i hate it when they keep asking me if i want them to find a guy for me! but actually there's no need to find coz there's already one deep in my heart!

like seriously?! i got a sense that you like me but why did this kind of things happen to me?! i feel like crying sia :( ! every time i just hope not to saw you appearing in front of me.. and now what? i don't feel like taking a look at you then you appear in front of me?! you're a very weird guy! many frens ask me to forget about him! i know he is not worth me to cry for.. but ITS HARD! when i have a crush on a guy, it would just be the fact that the guy won't like me.. many of my frens is always asking me when i gonna get a boyfriend! how im suppose to answer them? tell them i cant find the right guy yet?! also i have to change the topic when my fren asking me about this question! now that you want to let the whole world know that i like you is it!! can you just have some heart.. stop spreading things to ur fren about me!! something im thinking, is it because of the way i look like then no one like me? i can sense that he is thinking like that! now i fucking want to forget him! like for life sia! then now you are doing things which makes me remember and flash back memories about you!!  I ALWAYS WISH THAT YOU COULD READ THIS! AND STOP BEEN A HEARTLESS GUY JUST LIKE YOUR FRENS! I DON'T CARE IF YOU READ THIS OR NOT! COZ I WANT TO TELL YOU HOW HARD YOU HAVE MAKE ME HURT!! WHY MUST MY LIFE TO BE LIKE THAT! IF I CAN CHOOSE I WOULD NOT WANT TO KNOW  ABOUT YOU! :(   :(   :(   :(   :(   :(   :(   :(  :(   :( !!!!

its about someone! :(

well, you know that im forgetting about you and now what? you are tell people who is connected to me and you?! :( im always thinking what will you really GAIN from doing this to me?! :( i hope you know who you are.. why are you guys all so heartless one :( ?! its worst to like someone who is in the same class as you.. it will end up spreading to the whole class!! :( i seriously hate it when im forgetting about you and yet fren of yours keep saying ur name out! :( can you understand how it feels like if someone do this back to you?! im guessing you are actually the person who like me.. now that everyone has supported me to forget about you this heartless guy! but its hard.. coz its deep in my heart! you will gain what?! to let me know the fact that you like me?! but the fact is you decline that you like me?! then why do you nid to tell ur frens about i liking you? it mean that you are telling me that you like me too?!

Its boring when its 'N' level now!

haiz.. so boring until i have to stay at home instead of working.. soon its my birthday! :) thinking how many presents would i receive :)! aaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrhhhhhhhhhhhhh... can you get out of my mind! if i know all this happen, then i shouldn't have made friends with you! :(   many people say its easy to forget that someone but how? i cant! it sticks towards my mind and my heart! :( after all this is all because of FATE!! :(  many people say im too young to crush on a guy.. well, im not the worst! my fren is all in relationship.. why don't you tell them its young for them to be in a relationship?? i hate it when my frens started to ask me when im gonna get one!! :(

N level and personal stuffs..

Nowadays i may look free but im actually busying to prepare for my 'N' level.. i hope i could pass at least the important one.. hoping that i will pass my english.. coz i know maths is a impossible mission for me.. Now i have make myself busy just to forget about someone! Why can't you just go away from my mind?! :( when i don't want to see you then you appear then when i want to see you then you don't want to appear.. whats wrong with you? i hoping one day you would tell me that you are having a crush on me! really leh.. i really hoping for this to come.. coz its hard to forget you! :(