Alright! feeling so much hurting, heart breaking and i don't even know what is the reason behind it. yes, you can call me bitch,sluts or whatsoever. But i'm just being myself. Officially giving up to fall in love again. I like another guy now but he seems to also be those very friendly type that won't fall for me de. What is this man? I really need to cry now and i will really give up hopes on falling in love. Totally no point already since all the guys are the same. and one even treat me like god sister but to what i found out from him, he said he likes me  for quite a long time already. i mean like if you like me, you should have said and shouldn't take the god-sister's title into a crush title. you get what i mean? You taking granted of what i give you as a god brother and things end up like this then starts to blame me? Thanks uh! Honestly i don't know what life i'm leading now. But i just hope for the best for everything i have in life now! I was right to say that i should stop falling in love for the next 4 years.

About my life.

My life has been a great one nowadays but i literally break down today. Didn't know what causes me to have this kind of thinking. I just feel like crying on someone's shoulder but no shoulder for me to cry on. I started to feel that i making my friends feel so burden because they got to cheer me up and stuff, which i really appreciated it. Maybe i should just not be too open to how i feel on my friends. Maybe i should just keep things to myself so that i won't make my friends so burden. I can't find anyone to share my problems with. It's easier to say but hard to be done. Even my best frens also doesn't know all my problems. A few of my friends is the called "hi and bye friends". I imagine how my friends all could just ignore my whatsapp. Does you all know how i really feel? I hate when my whatsapp was being ignored and i end up giving myself excuse saying that you all are busy that's why you all never reply my whatsapp. But you all de last seen was the time after i send and you all didn't even bother to reply me. This feeling is just great. You know? Posting things on this blog is like i'm really talking to myself. No one would bother about me. You all have not seen how much i have been through in my life. Almost cried while typing this. Jessie, you got to be strong and not let this little challenge make you break down. Just cheer up okay? I know you can do it! JIAYOU! :)