To: LOUIS TAN HUI HIANG! :)

you are like the power i nid to smile. you said you liked my smile and that is the reason why im still so positive now. :) i never regret to love you and its a first sight in love. one look at you, i fall for you. you are just too hot for me. you make me melts. sometimes you are like an small kids and you indeed still have a small kids face but nevertheless, i still like it! coz its so cute! :) we have so many things in common, its just wasted that we are not couple. i can wait for you but the qns is do you want me to wait for you? i willing to wait for you, no matter what coz you are the prefect one that im looking for. even though, you are not that prefect but in my eyes you are all prefect. :) i hope the world don't end as i will keep on waiting for you and i wanna give you a love letter and an fav chocolate of yours on ur birthday! i dont know what you are thinking now. are you falling for me? or are you just treating me as a fren? this is my first time to be so into falling inlove with you. i know its abit mushy but who cares right? you bright up my world like no one do! :) ily iloveyou i love you i l o v e y o u!

To: LOUIS TAN HUI HIANG! :'( you won't get to read this blog coz you dont have my blog address.

Now its just hard to continue with this life of mine. I still dont get it, do you still like me or not? or you like me as a fren only? i am tired and giving up on my love life already. When i want to move on, you have some reasons to make me for fall you again. When i fall for you again, i wanna move on. How i wish i could delete all this feelings for you. Seriously lah! You guys does not know how it really feels like to leave me alone. I'm sick and tired to continue to live. Here, i'm officially saying that i'm giving up my lovelife. I does not know whether to write a love letter to you on ur birthday or not. I guess i will just write the love letter for you. You want to throw away that letter also can. You want to keep the letter also can. Most properly, you will keep that letter. In that letter, it gonna be how i feel and i hopes we can be best fren even if we can't be bf and gf. If next time i were to give up of you already, then suddenly you came back to me. I won't really accept you again or maybe see how. 

oh well, so many things happening now.. first is i have being left alone all the times! no matter where am i! and no one could really understand me! so ya.. and second is i had a crush on a guy but its turn out to be the facts that he had a crush on another girl.. :( what is this? im tired of trying to fall in love and i hate the part where my fren say not always guys will be the one to ask for stead.. well, i giving up on falling in love now.. coz nothing is going smooth for me.. its all my fate to end up like this.. god, can you let the right person come to my life and make my life abit better? :(